The webinar was about to begin and – despite 38 people registered – no one was on the call.
MY HEART SUNK.
Something had gone wrong… again. I’d sent out a faulty link.
MY INNER CRITIC CEASED THE MOMENT:
“This is a disaster! No one is ever going to trust you if you can’t get the little things right! All that hard work down the drain!”
And, then, in a gentler tone:
“Maybe you aren’t meant to do this.”
It was my fifth technical f*ck-up in front of a live audience in four months.
Not only that:
MERCURY WAS NO LONGER IN RETROGRADE.
I had no excuse other than admitting when it came to technology I didn’t know what I was doing… and as a recovering perfectionist, that is a difficult place to go.
And so, the old standby came to mind:
MAYBE I’M NOT MEANT TO DO THIS.
But this didn’t make sense – I help people transform their lives and the lives of people they work with.
When my work goes well (without technical glitches) it lights me up.
And anything that lights you up and lights others up in the process is something you are meant to do.
Maybe God was testing my resolve by sending me these challenges? Seeing how serious I actually am?
That belief could certainly help me get back on the wagon and stay motivated.
But, after a good cry on the shoulder of a good friend, I decided no.
Like everyone in this game of business and of life, I am figuring it out as I go.
And maybe, that’s what these technical screw-ups were meant to show me in the first place:
SELF-COMPASSION.
We all make mistakes. Sometimes painful ones. Sometimes in front of others.
And we learn from them.
FAILURE IS SIMPLY AN OPPORTUNITY TO FORGIVE YOURSELF.
You are human. You will always get a second chance.
